i’ve fallen in love with life again

I’ve fallen in love with life again 

no longer wrapped up in addiction

it’s been 4 years but the recovery been rapid 

that little girl i once was, been buried under all that happened

wondering where i was going and what i was doing with this life i’ve been given

head no longer spinnin’ 

no longer dazed and confused

see i used to be stuck in a cycle

but i came to a crossroads 

had to know there was a deeper meaning than this life i've been livin'

felt so numb too every feelin'

but now i’ve fallen in love with life again
i love my friends

and i take note of when the sun rises and sets all over again

i laugh and i cry

i accept my emotions and know they’re not the final verdict

i get in my car and i crinkle a smile because i know joy is a daily pursuit

im a carrier of peace

where i once could feel the anxiety in my bones

all i’m filled with is affirmation and love from the best friend i discovered i was in desperate need of all along

he’s made me fall in love with life again

ever since i’ve started falling in love with him

he showed me how to live, how to pick up myself where i’ve been tossed

how to get up and feel moved by a mighty cause

ever since i’ve started falling in love with him…

the beauty in his eyes has become the only thing i’m seeing

all i can see is him

not my broken pieces lying on the floor

and in every crevice i feel the need to explore

nah, they’ve been picked up

i’ve rummaged through all the muck

faced the facts

and i know that in the facts that’s when my faith begins to arise

because it’s only from a great fall that rising can happen

it’s only the darkest right before dawn hits

now i’m waking up with joyful expectation

another day I got, 

with my God, 

as his girl

i’m his and every time I’ve looked back since

i’ve never found anyone as good as this love that doesn’t make sense

that heightens my senses and helps me see life for what it really is

helps me see reality 

and shifts my perspective again and again

to help me see the beauty in every day life

because of this love i find myself falling in

nothin’ hits like the first flip of my Bible after a long day

when it’s been too long since i’ve stopped to gaze into the eyes of the one I love

I can feel it in my heart because I long to truly sit and see and let it envelope me

no longer wrapped up in addiction

still fighting off the things that left me in affliction

but i’m restin’ because i’m more healed n delivered than i’ve ever been 

his love… the life i live… all of it’s beautiful because He is at the center of it 

never thought i’d fall in love with life again

but here i am, with a song in my soul, and breathing in the air of truly living 

i’ve fallen in love with life again

where my soul felt it could barely keep breathin’ 

i’ve been rescued from the deep waters of addiction

may my heart continue to fall in love with my true life, Jesus, again and again

"He reached down from heaven and rescued me; he drew me out of deep waters.” 2 Samuel 22:17

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