beauty fades pt. 1
beauty fades pt. 1
beauty fades
that makeup won't stay
won’t cover up what's inside
can’t hide these thoughts taking over my brain
can't hide a heart that's been clothed in confusion
can’t cover up how much you’re disillusioned
one day i’ll look in the mirror and my skin won't be the same
i’ll trace my finger over the creases in my face
so much more beneath the face i see lookin back at me
fleeting fleeting
like the flick of a switch
on for a moment, catching everyone's eyes
but the realization of the light dissipates
fleeting fleeting
like time on the clock
like sand slipping away in the cracks of an hourglass
we spend all this time getting ready
puttin' on a face
when we know deep down, we all want be known in the sacred place
our souls
the most real part of us
makin’ up the complexities of our mind, will, and emotions
our mind is what we tend to think on
our will the decisions we make
our emotions those fickle things, that leave us happy one moment and lonely the next
them things keep up with the changes we experience
we want to be known when we’re at our best
and yet loved most when we’re seen as a mess
beauty fades
im bound to change
just as quick as these flowers fade
and this wind turns to stillness
growin’ old with time
wondering how life could pass me by
longing to be the type that ages like fine wine
sweeter, deeper, and richer than ever
with crinkly skin but a heart filled with treasure
this gold i’ve kept safe comes from being scathed
because life inevitably complicates
and makes you contemplate what really matters
turns them scrapes into scars
but i’ve learned to take my scars and use them to scrape above the surface
of waters that were meant to drown me n keep me from my purpose
this gold in my soul is not because i haven’t taken a risk or two
or neglected the path of forlorn mistakes
but because of my relentless pursuit of courage and my unrelenting ability to get back up even with memories that strain
read pt. 2 here for the rest of this poem