beauty fades pt. 2

beauty fades pt. 2
beauty fades
all this makeup I have could never cover up what happens within

no matter how much I want to hide or act like it doesn’t exist

i can’t be tricked

by the smiles that i see

and all the instagram beauty

there's so much more to people than our modern world has been programmed to recognize

them screens makin’ us cold n hardened as we tend to forget there's more to their life than the shiny facade they portray

im resolvin’ to let the contents of my heart remain prettier than my face

How can I live a full life with all this ugly on the inside?

not lettin’ the camera be the lens i hide behind

vanity won’t be what i pursue

last time I checked bein’ vain is nonsense

it’s like sayin’ i'm better off livin’ empty

emptiness won’t be what gives my life meaning

them masks won’t suffice

puttin’ on different versions of me to cover up what’s going on inside

lookin’ into your eyes as you walk by

wonderin’ what you’ve buried beneath

because i know all the pretty we perceive

will fade quickly

get an honest glimpse of what's going on inside people

and you realize people are not fully perceived in their entirety

i realize my misguided perceptions are trickin’ me

just as much i trick myself to believe

that this pretty will hide the ugly ragin’ inside of me

i got things i walk through

things that a screen can't cover up

things that instagram couldn’t even touch

things that my camera can’t quite make up

things that have touched my soul and left me tainted

and now i’m just painting

all this pain

with brushes that drag a foundation that's meant to fade

on skin that will one day be weathered and wrinkly

beauty fades

i want an intelligent mind

a soul that's at peace

settled in the ways of my king

serving the least of these

living free

taking the focus off of me

and all this vanity that seeks to rob me

n leave me empty

im tryin’ to live full of all the good stuff

because beauty fades

as quickly as it comes, oh how it goes away

but i know that the very essence of me, my soul is the one that's meant to stay

so i'm letting go of all that disillusionment

and my tendency to glue my eyes to my way of seein’ things

tellin’ it to vacate

gone off the premises

lettin’ my soul heal & being relentless in keepin’ it tended like plants in a garden

tend the garden of my soul, oh God into one that is pure steady

anchored in the remedy of Heaven

my soul will be heavy on my pursuit of living a life of depth n meaning and letting go of the empty nature of the fleeting

this poem is based on the following verses

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31:30

"You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God." 1 Peter 3:4